A lot of these things have lead me to reflect upon the past that I've come from, and the relationships that I have.
I've come to realise how special my relationship to my younger sister and brother really is. So I'd like to write this post to them, heck, I'm feeling sentimental.
Growing up, we had a lot of fun, as well as hard times which, with thanks and admiration to Mum, we were mostly protected from.
I know I was a bossy little madame to you both sometimes, I can imagine it came across as controlling and mean. But what I've realised is all along, and even still now, I felt a strong compulsion to protect you both, because I'm your big sister and feel like it's my job.
Sadie, as teenagers we didn't get along, and it makes me sad to think that the ways we argued and treated each other had an impact on our relationship - we should have been two peas in a pod. I realise now that with our personality clashes we were never going to understand one another.
I'm filled with hope, now that we are both adults, that we can understand each other better and start to build more of a friendship. I would love for you to feel able to confide in me and ask me for advice, or just to offload some stress onto me without fear of burdening me with anxiety or worrying I'd go talk to Mum about it - I realise that there are some things that she just shouldn't know!
Calum, you were the cutest kid and it's amazing to see you grow up to be a pretty awesome young man.
I've always felt like you are the glue that sticks the three of us together, you are very perceptive to mine and Sadie's different personality types and as you've got older - and less annoying - I feel like we both have a great bond with you. I admire your talents, you are intelligent and you possess such a natural creative flair - don't ever neglect that!
Your confidence and ability to fight your corner are your strengths and I envy those qualities. I know I've been guilty of expecting too much from you maturity-wise, but that's only because your attitudes are so adult. I forget you're only 17 and still have some growing up to do. Remember that you can always come to me (your biggest sister) for help and advice, even though you think you have the answer to everything.
Sadie Lady, your dedication and passion for your work and to the kids you teach is inspirational. Your emotional strength is something I can't match, but please remember that it's ok to let your guard down and need someone else to be the strong one every once in a while.
Stay true to yourself, you are a beautiful girl and there's no reason not to feel confident in yourself. Don't let what society says is 'normal' or 'acceptable' make you feel insecure. That's the one thing I hope I am able to show you and support you with. It's ok to be yourself, and to have your own opinions and style, because that's what makes you, you.
It's society that has it wrong, not you. Be yourself and the right people will love you for it.
I am a stronger person because of the things the two of you have taught, and continue to teach me.
I love you guys and I apologise for how incredibly 'slushy' this all is! I promise I won't do it again.
Xx
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